Yesterday, I was driving with my mom. She was about to get a second job. Hopefully I don't jinx it by saying here. Anyway, she mentioned that now she will have more income, I can start finding schools to finish my Bachelors. I DON'T WANT TO FINISH IT! I'm not sure if my mind will change in the future. But as of now, I don't want to go back to school. Can everybody please accept that? This is the problem with Filipino culture. As long as you don't have your bachelors degree, they think you're a loser and will not go anywhere.
In their defense, I never really sat down with them and tell straight up I don't want to go back. But, they should've felt it or something. Or at least don't keep asking me about it if you can tell I'm irritated or trying to change the subject right away. Still, it's unfair.
So back to my mom and I's conversation, after she said I should start looking again I answered, No. She continued "you don't want to go back to school? How can you demand more money." I said "Mom, that's not my plan. I don't need that." What I meant is, I'm not the kind of person who studies because I want more money. I'm not like you, who makes a big deal about how much she makes in life and think of other people jobs' as nothing. After she tried to absorb it for a minute, I didn't answer anymore because I'm tired of that conversation.
I'm the type of person who likes to enjoy the spur of the moment. If you tell me to go somewhere or do crazy things, you'll know I'm good to go because you'll see I'm psyched for it. As long as I dont have plans prior and jobs to go to, I'm always ready.
Perseverance of another can come from everything. It can come from friends, family, strangers, cultures, etc.
I'm biased, so forgive me for not having a point, or having several ones that I keep saying or believing.
I hate that I'm gonna disappoint my parents, but I have a job and plans and if they want me to be by myself, I will. I just know for a fact, that if I dont want something, I will not do it. Just like food, most people would say try this and that, and if I dont want to, I wont.
Support is another word with some similarities. Sometimes support comes from people who loves you or some that only does it because it can be beneficial for them. Support is being happy for someone and loving them anyways no matter what they wanna do. Helping them be on track and be better is such a big gesture, yet forcing them to be on the 'right' track just because society is used to that 'track' is not always the right thing. How can a person grow for themselves if you always help of push them to something they dont want? I'm losing 'track' of my point, lol. But still, I'm in the struggle of ignoring what my parents want me to do and what I dont want to do. Did I mention I'm an only child so they dont have another one to make them proud? I'm the black sheep of myself. What a crazy thing to say, well I am crazy.
Dont be such baby. You can be, but dont be.
Dont force anything in life. If you know you are not happy with the same old routine, try another one. Dont be so caught with what others is doing and make yourself just like them. Dont compare and dont be afraid of opinions. Know what you fell happy about and for and plan for yourself, not for everybody else's expectations. You know if you're happy with something, do it or at least earn something for you to do it. If you have a choice, never force yourself for anything you extremely don't want.
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