Know Your Worth

I will talk about two separate situation that is both currently happening in my life. Let's start with the first one: Work Place.
I've been a Truss Designer for 15 months now and I know I have a lot if things to learn. I started on the very beginning with little to no knowledge at all about trusses. I studied Civil Engineering in College, not architect. So Last year, I am so happy (still am) that I was given this opportunity to be trained. To officially gained experience to start my real career.
While doing this Full Time, I'm also doing a Part Time job in the a Resort and Casino. I love both of my work and forever grateful to my managers for letting me do both without hurting the other. And most recently, had my vacation for a week. In this Part time, the stress is way less. It's all talk and physical (hands to be particular since we are making reservations and answering phone calls). Compared to my Full Time, it's like hanging out with my friends when we are not busy. And if we are, it's still tiring but nothing like Drained 100% of everything in your body.
5 months after I started my Part Time, I got my Full Time. My Full Time is more of my profession, while the Part Time is some kind of passion of mine since I love talking and pleasing others (not all the time though as any customer service agent know). I was paid less in PT but just before my anniversary, PT Company gave us all a raise. Now FT is the less one.

6 Months after our raise in my PT, it's my annual review in FT. They gave me a raise but not as much as my PT. Thinking I'd be okay with it, I was wrong. Weeks passed, couple months, I can't shake the fact that I'm earning less in my FT than my PT. It would've been fine I guess if FT is not hard but oh believe me, it's mentally draining.
Just last week I did not go to the gym because I was doing overtime (excuses as to me being lazy) but you get the gist. Is it really worth it to do this to myself?
So yesterday I had the courage to email my manager:
"I know it's only been a few months since my Annual Review but it's been bugging me that I haven't tried to ask for my pay to be matched with my Second Job. I'm earning about --- over there and the job itself is not mentally exhausting unlike here. I know I'm still learning and willing to train more to reach my best potential.
Please don't get me wrong, I love my job here.  It's just that, I don't feel comfortable being more invested with my career in this company than in --- when I'm earning less here at ---
Let me know in a couple of days about this matter. Thank you so much!"

Thinking they would just brush off my email, I was wrong. My manager is trying his best to get my request and my supervisor (who hired me) says why didn't I say something before. I said I was shy. This is the problem. If at that point (my annual review) I said something about my other job, maybe this would've been approved already. I hope I don't jinx anything by writing this but I'm just happy that my coworkers and the one who hired me says I have the right to have it matched since I learned fast. Please, I am not bragging in anyway. Just genuinely happy that my hard work is appreciated. Even if the upper people don't give me the match I requested, (I hope they will) I'm still ecstatic I asked since I did not loose anything and I was told I am worth it :)

I suggest DON"T READ the second part because it will ruin my happy story above.

Second part. Non sense compare to the first one - Love life. oh my "boyfriend" and I are not talking more than 3 days now. I put the quotation marks since I don't know if we are still together. Last time we argue, I was pissed that I threatened to break up with him. He answered with 'That's your solution to everything". I don't mean. I love the man no matter how hard this is. Long Distance Relationship right? Another Problem is, he himself is not okay. He is not confident because his career is on pause. I'm sorry my love if you are feeling this way. I don't know what to do anymore.
So last Friday I texted him FIRST after ONE whole day of no contact. Little rants and BS as part of our fighting, he left me in SEEN. Since then, Nothing. I really miss him, I want to talk to him, know he's okay. But I already did the first move last time. It got me nowhere. Why should I lower my pride more than him? Sorry for the rant guys.
Still, Spread Love if you can, you have no idea how lots of people need it in their lives <3


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